25 Things

25 Things....

1. I don't in any way, shape, or form believe in soulmates. And I don't understand how people who believe in them say they will probably never meet their soulmate. If you never meet them, then they can't exist. It's like if a tree falls in a forest but if there is no one around to hear it, did it really fall? The answer is no.

2. If you can't tell from that first fact about me, I am at a stage in my life where I am very jaded by the idea of love and relationships. When children are growing up, they are led to believe by Disney movies that love is great and there is always a Prince Charming. But people grow up and fall in love, and then they fall out of love. It's been hard for me lately to grasp the concept of love and how people can remain happy for more than a couple years.

3. I am trying really hard this semester to raise my GPA. I have been doing so well so far, but am worried my old habits will come back in a week or two. I just need to know I can have determination that lasts more than a week.

4. I have come to the conclusion that I am more productive when I have alone time. I can't study in groups or be distracted by the TV or music. I need quiet and emptiness to get things done.

5. I never wear matching socks. That's boring.

6. Now that I've been out of high school for about two years, I find it amusing to see what my old classmates are up to whenever I go home. Some have changed for the better, and some have definitely changed for the worse.

7. Back in high school I always felt underestimated, and I know that is partly my fault. I only did enough work to get by, and wasn't involved in any extracurriculars. I know my parents say they are always proud of me, but I just want them to actually be proud for once. I got to college and got involved with a bunch of stuff but the same old school habits caught up to me. This semester I will not feel underestimated again.

8. I don't really have a "type" when it comes to boys necessarily, but I always go for the "nice" guys. They don't have to listen to a certain type of music or wear certain clothes, or have certain hobbies. I just always go for the guy that has a lot of female friends and that everyone loves.

9. Unlike most people, I have had only long-term serious relationships. I have not just "dated" or just talked to people. But that is all changing. I just want to be able to have something fun and not worry about all the seriousness of it all for once.

10. I would love to be a fashion designer if I could have any career. Or a rock star. I would love to be able to get up in front of thousands of people and sing my songs and rock out on a guitar.

11. I really do believe that timing is everything in life. When you meet certain people and when you do certain things all depends on time. Sometimes the time is right, and sometimes it's not and we just have to accept that fact.

12. My life will be complete when I see Pavement live. I have loved this band since I was in ninth grade, and when they finally reunite, I will be first in line to see them. I don't care about money or the place; seeing them would make every dream come true.

13. Speaking of Pavement, I have come to the conclusion that the book Love Is A Mixtape is my favorite book in the entire world. The love in that book is the kind of love that I want to have someday. However, his love is taken away from him after a few short years. Life is just not fair.

14. I want to live in New York City someday. Well not someday; I want to move there after college. I don't care about money, I just want to follow my dreams.

15. Speaking of money, for some reason I am just really bad with it. I have been working a steady job since the week I turned 16, and have made close to $30,000. And I don't have any of that. It's quite sad. I am trying to work on that. I really need to buy my own car soon.

16. I love vitamin water. I can't really get through the day without it, which sucks when I don't have that much money to spend on it. My dining dollars go too quickly when I buy one everyday.

17. I hate "about me" sections on social networking sites. It's like, I can't just describe myself in one of those boxes because my personality and existence is way more complicated than that. That's why I have this blog. That no one reads anymore.

18. I love music and always have. I'm always looking to find my new favorite band.

19. I hate fake people and people who are always talking trash about people they hardly know. First impressions are not always correct.

20. I can never remember my dreams. All my friends tell me about the crazy dreams they have, but I have not remembered any of my dreams in a long time.

21. I'm kind of a Starbucks junkie. I have grown to love coffee. Black coffee. I'm a caffeine addict.

22. I hate not having a car here at school. I am an independent person in many aspects, and hate having to rely on people even when they say they don't mind.

23. I love stargazing. I just like to imagine what is really out there and what it would be like in space. I want to find someone who would sit outside with me all night and talk with until sunrise.

24. Coming to school here was one of the best decisions I have ever made. Even though I am from the city, I enjoy being somewhere completely different. I love all the people I have met here and all the activities I participate in.

25. I know I said I do not believe in soul mates, but there is a little part of me deep down inside that wants to meet someone someday that will be the missing piece in my jigsaw puzzle.