Worst Day Ever

Today was probably the worst day of my life so far. I've been really sick the past couple days and went to bed last night around 11 after I took some more medicine. I then slept for almost 15 hours. When I woke up around 1 today I felt like I was about to die. I could barely move or sit up. My throat was killing me and I had a high fever. I called my house just bawling like a baby because I felt so bad. The doctor on campus isn't open since it is the weekend, so my parents told me I should just try going to the hospital in town instead. So I called Jordan up and she was able to take me. We get there and I sign in and see an orderly in the ER. He takes my blood pressure. Then my temperature. Then he tells me my blood pressure is doing something weird. It was jumping back and forth abnormally. He tells me he wants to run some tests to figure out why it was doing that. Well, I will tell you why it was doing that. Because I get nervous just even thinking about going to the doctors, let alone going to the ER without my mom or my normal doctor. That is why my blood pressure was so high. I try and tell him that. He doesn't believe me. Then we go back to the room with the scary hospital bed and all the things like you see on television. They hook my finger up to some thing so they can monitor my blood pressure. I had talked to my parents and they told me that I definitely did not need any heart tests, I just needed a throat swab to determine whether I had either strep throat or the flu. Jordan and I just sat there for awhile just talking about random things like movies and Edward Cullen so my heartrate would get back to normal. Then a doctor came in and just talked to me for awhile and they told me I needed some blood work done to determine whether I had flu. That's ridiculous. They could have just taken a throat swab. So I was like, if I do have flu, there's no medicine you can give me, so why should I even bother having blood taken in the first place. So we left because they weren't going to do anything else for me. I hate doctors even more now. But that does make me appreciate my real doctor back home even though I always complain when I have to go. lol.

Sick Day

So this weekend was supposed to be basically amazing. But now I'm sick. And won't be able to partake in the amazingness. Sad times for Marie. Last night after the movie I went back to my room and wasn't tired at all. I just hung out until like 2:30 a.m. when I started to feel funny. My throat got all scratchy and I felt like I was running a fever. So I decided I should just go to bed and see what I felt like in the morning. Well, I woke up around 6:00 a.m. feeling like crap. And basically tossed and turned for two hours. Then got up and went to eat some breakfast and went to my 9 a.m. class because his attendance policy is so strict and I've already missed twice. But I definitely skipped my 10 a.m. and just came back to my room and relaxed to wait for my roommate to get out of class so we could go eat lunch. We had Stacy's Deli which was amazing as usual. I definitely still feel bad though. And I don't want to go to the clinic because they will just swab my throat and it will take them three days to get the results back and they'll just give me penicillin which won't do anything. So, I'm just going to hope it's nothing serious, well too serious, and wait it out. I'm watching movies and laying in bed alllll day. Although, I really have work I need to be doing but I don't think that's going to be happening. I am happy that this humid weather is about to end. It's in the 50s in Dallas already, so in a few hours it should be cooler here. Anyways, last night before I started feeling bad was great. Allison came over to pick me up and we got Quizno's and took it back to her apartment so I could finally see it. Then we went back to campus to see Twilight, and omg it was so packed. So many fan girls. lol. And all of us probably saw it 3 times when it was originally in theaters. But it's still good regardless! I've seen it five times. lol. Edward Cullen is just the perfect man. :]

Rant Post

So uh I just read through my last few posts and noticed that they've been really short. Which is funny because this week was crazy busy, I guess I just didn't have time to update this. Well anyways, my suspicions were just confirmed that a certain someone has something going on with a certain someone else. I realize that probably made no sense whatsoever, but it really doesn't have to. Hopefully I'll look back on this in a few months and not realize who it was even talking about. lol. He'll be sorry he passed this awesomeness up. I also realize that the last few posts have been about how much I hate men. And this one will probably be no different. But it's better that I get it out in this blog that only a few people read rather than take it out on Facebook or other aspects of my life.
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OK. I feel a little better now. :] This weekend is going to be fun! One of the first fun weekends I'll have had in awhile. Seeing Twilight twice tomorrow night. Yes, twice. lol. And then Saturday I've got a photo scavenger hunt with my sorority and Phi Psi. Which will be great. And then going to a basketball game with the roommate Saturday night. And tonight some of us are going to see Twilight as well. I really love that book. and movie, obviously. lol. But yes, I am so glad to be having some fun after this stressful week.

It Is Destiny

I just watched Slumdog Millionaire. Finally.
And oh my gosh, it was so great.
Makes me want to believe in the idea of soulmates again. So much.
Just that fact that there is one person out there for me that everything I do is leading to them...

I don't know how i'm meant to feel anymore

Exhausted doesn't even begin to cover how I feel......

..but I got everything done. Which is all that matters.
Goodnight blogger.


p.s. I think the new Lily Allen cd is the new soundtrack to my life.

I Give Up

I give up.
I just give up on men.
They are frustrating and not worth my time and energy anymore.
They all end up being jerks in the end, so why even bother anymore?
If I start talking to one, they seem interested for a couple weeks but then go and find someone else. Or a few other ones.
Is it too much to ask for a decent guy? And it's not the fact that I mind being single, because I honestly don't. I've never been like that. It's just the fact that I'm just looking for someone to have fun with, nothing serious, but apparantely that is just too much to ask for. So, I give up. Not that I was even actually trying too extremely hard in the first place I just thought I had something going. But whatever. I don't need this.

Somebody take the cookies away from me...

I am the queen of procrastination.
I have a podcast, feature story, newspaper article, and blog posts all due by Tuesday and Wednesday and I am sitting here watching The Oscars and eating Girl Scout cookies.
And blogging of course!
Well it's the end of another weekend and I am happy and sad about that all at the same time. I don't want to go to class in the morning but I am happy this weekend is over because it was just too drama filled and lame and I don't even feel like blogging about it. Besides that it involved a late night trip to IHOP and watching Disney movies and reruns of America's Next Top Model. And yesterday I worked for a few hours on my New Media blog so I was a little productive.
Tomorrow I am going to do my podcast finally. I was having trouble coming up with a topic but finally decided thanks to Brandon's help that I am going to do it over The Oscars, and I can use Garrett as my "guest" because he's a really big movie buff. So it'll be good hopefully. Then Tuesday night is going to be epic. The other day at lunch some of us were talking about the game Spoons and how everybody used to play it back in the days of middle school with pens instead of spoons. lol. So I decided that we needed to get a group together and play! It's going to be fun times for all. :]

Adventure to the country

I had a mini adventure today. Basically almost died. Well, not really but you get the idea. lol. So anyways, after my two classes this morning Courtney and I went to go pick up some more cases of Girl Scout cookies because her troop needed extras. The lady we had to pick them up from lives like way out in the boonies. And we already live in a smallish town so if you drive out 20 or 30 more minutes you really are out in the country. So first we go through the drivethru at Whataburger to get some amazing patty melts, or "fatty melts" as she likes to call them. haha. We start driving out of town and this lady lives at least 20 minutes away from everything in town, so we had lost cell phone service and it was way out there. We get to her house and pull into this winding dirt road and see a cute little house with a hugeeeeee front lawn. Like, it was totally epic. Looked like it could be a park. Then we drive further down and she totally had horses like, right in her yard and they were eating hay and just looked so cute, and we were totally freaking out about it. We are both such "city" people it is quite amusing. :P Then we pick up all the cookies we need and start heading back to campus. Well, we're almost back to the main drag and we see this car about to pull out from one of the side streets, and then she actually did pull out and we're just like, omg! My drink and stuff totally flew out of my hands and we like lurched forward pretty bad. Luckily we didn't collide but it was still pretty crazy.

The rest of the afternoon I just kind of hung out and watched television and starting writing my column for Monday's paper. Then we had dinner because it was chicken fried steak night. yipee. Later we're going to see Role Models and the theater, and then it's time for Your Mom to rock out!!! :P

Sleep Is For The Weak

I stayed up until 4 a.m. last night.
Just because I could.
I felt like being a rebel.
My sleep schedule has been royally screwed up this week though. I decided last night I didn't feel like going to my 11 o'clock class this morning because I could do the work outside of class, so I just stayed up until 4 a.m. and then slept until 1:30 this afternoon. My roommate got back from class like 10 minutes after I woke up for the day. Marie=epic fail. haha.

The rest of the afternoon was kind of lazy. I just watched television and then went to a newspaper meeting. Then we had an 80's Night social for my sorority so I went to that and it was pretty fun. I won third place in the costume contest. woot woot. Now it's 1:30 in the morning and I have a quiz at 9 a.m. Hopefully I will wake up on time. :/

I Just Wanna Live

I just want to drive and go on a never-ending roadtrip across the U.S.
I want to see the Mississippi River and the Blue Ridge Mountains and the Grand Canyon and Mount Rushmore and New York City and the Pacific Northwest.
I want to explore before I get too old and have too many responsibilities.
I just want to find someone to talk about endless random questions of the universe with.

Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus

Ok, just a forewarning, this entry is going to resemble something that a 15-year-old girl might have written, but it's necessary for me to get out all my feelings in here so I don't go crazy in real life lol.

Why are boys so confusing!!!? I mean, most of the time I haven't had problems deciphering them, but lately it's just been mega frustrating. Like back at the beginning I was pretty sure things were going somewhere with Marc, but then we just kind of stopped talking during the second half of Winter Break. Then we get back to school and we start chatting on AIM, but I wasn't too happy about that because he just totally stopped talking to me during break and my Facebook creeping skills showed me that it seemed like he was talking to other girls, which I mean, there is nothing wrong with that, but the whole on again/off again thing got really old. So anyways, we were going to hang out the other weekend but he broke his hand that day so that didn't happen. Then I forgot about him because things with Danny picked up. Then on Monday Marc starts chatting with me and using these totally cheesy pick-up lines and stuff. And he was like, hey text me tonight if you get bored, so I was like, oh sure I will! And I totally didn't because I don't want things to go anywhere anymore. And today when I was at work he starts chatting with me and I ask how his hand is doing and he said something like "well it's not doing well...because you aren't here to hold it..." omg how freaking cheesy. And I mean, it sucks because I did have a thing for him at one point but now I have a thing for Danny and it's like, he's the opposite and so hard to read. I want things to happen with him, but I hate not knowing and having to be patient! This is such a crappy situation. lol. Whew.

Too Many Haters

You know, I am so sick of people complaining about Obama and his policies. I have heard people talking about how he has already broken all the promises he made during his campaign. The man hasn't been in office for a month yet, so how on earth could he have done that?! It takes more than 3 weeks to get things done, especially with the state that our economy is in right now. Today he signed the 800 billion dollar stimulus package into law, and people are complaining about that. We're in a recession, obviously something needs to be done to fix that. Those that say we should just wait it out because it just goes in a cycle are ignorant. People are out of work and the job market is awful right now. The last eight years of Bush were awful and now someone is trying to fix things and people just won't quit complaining. Obama is actually doing things to help, unlike Bush who sat in the White House during the last few months of his term doing nothing about the bailouts in the auto industry and on Wall Street. Also, Obama announced today he is sending almost 10,000 troops to Afghanistan and all the Republicans find it amusing. It's not amusing, it is what should have been done 8 years ago after 9/11. We should have focused our efforts there in the first place instead of getting in over our heads in Iraq, but that's old news. It's going to take time to fix everything that Bush messed up, but apparantely some people just don't understand that right now. Sigh.

Epic Adventure

I have a lot to blog about. And what a better time to do it than 2:30 in the morning? :]
So I was determined to actually get up at 8 this morning so Jordan and I could grab Starbucks before my test, but of course I didn't wake up until I heard a text from Jordan at 8:30. Whoops. So she, being the amazing best friend that she is, went to Starbucks and got me coffee and then met me outside the Business Building to give it to me. Then I went to take my Marketing test and I'm pretty sure it ate me for breakfast. I knew his tests were going to be hard, but all the answer choices could have been right it seemed like so there is no telling what kind of awful grade I made on it. Anyways, then I went to my second Marketing class of the day and listened to my teacher ramble about her cattle and her trucks instead of advertising and marketing like she should have been talking about. sigh. I had one more class later this afternoon and I went to that and it was mega boring as always. Then I had plans to hang out with Danny around 6 so I went back to my room and got ready for that. He came over and we played Guitar Hero and played around on the Internet and got food and just sat and talked and then looked at funny youtube videos and we had a good time. I really don't know what to think though...I mean, he's really nice but I'm not sure if he thinks of me that way. But time will tell. I have a good feeling about it right now. So anyways, then Courtney and I watched Pretty Woman, and our expectations of men were raised by like 438945 percent after seeing Richard Gere be all amazing. Then we go back to our computers and around 1:30 Courtney's like, wanna go walk around with me around campus so I can do my assignment for class tomorrow? So we decided to go on an epic adventure at 1:30 in the morning! We went and did what she had to do for her assignment outside, and then we decided we wanted to try and "steal" the movie posters outside the UC....There was one for Cadillac Records that had Adrian Brody on it that she really wanted to take. haha. So we get up to the poster stand and pry it open and we look at each other and are like, omg what are we doing. lol. We decide to just walk away and forget about it. We are walking back to the room and we realize they have another poster stand outside the Rec Center so we decide to go check that out. We get there and start to take the poster out but chickened out again. So we came up with an elaborate plan to tell people in the morning about how we were taking the poster out but a campus police officer rode up on a bike at that moment and yelled at us and told us to stop so we couldn't achieve our dream. lol. So yeah. Then we are finally walking back to our dorm and we get hungry. So we get in the car and drive thru McDonalds and Taco Bell. She had a pretty good parking space when we left campus, and when we came back ten minutes later someone had definitely taken our space! At 2 in the morning. lol So it was a long walk back to the room. haha. And that is the tale of my epic adventure.

Someone, Somewhere

I love Jason Reeves. Yay for getting to see him live over Spring Break. :]


Someone is waiting
someone who understands exactly how you feel
exactly how you feel..
someone is dreaming
someone is hoping just that this will be the day
that this will be the day..

that you take your eyes off the ground
out of the blue
and see that someone is looking right
back at you..

maybe that someone's me
maybe it's meant to be
lovers, strangers
sometimes bombs fall quietly..
maybe it's chemistry
maybe it's hard to see that someone is the right one
i hope that someone is me..

nobody's perfect
nobody's perfect no one really knows the truth
all we've got's a point of view..
and there's too many questions
there's too many questions and too many reasons not to try
there's too many reasons not to try..

but you should take your eyes off the ground
out of the blue
and see that someone is looking right
back at you..

CHORUS

where ya gonna go from here??
cause everything you need's out there
and you can have it if you dare
if you dare
there's someone somewhere..

Your Mom

My hands are tired.
I've been playing Guitar Hero all night.
I'm not sure why I'm blogging because my fingers hurt but I'm bored now so here we go! lol.
Today was pretty good. I have come to the conclusion that single people have more fun on Valentine's Day. Well, that is single people who don't mind being single. Like me. But then again I've never been one of those people who hates being single. Especially recently because I was in a relationship for so long. But anyways, yes, slept in until about 11, then got ready and got some brunch togo from the cafeteria and went to the library for awhile to study for Marketing. Stayed there for a few hours and then came back to my room and just watched Love Actually for a little bit while I was waiting for my roommate to get back. She called me on her way back to the dorm and was like, hey we should go out and be productive members of society tonight instead of just sit in the room. lol. So, we decided to go out. We wanted to go up to Oklahoma to the casinos because the gambling age there is only 18, but it's about a 4 hour drive from here so that wouldn't have worked out. Then we considered going to Shreveport but the gambling age there is 21 so that wouldn't have worked out. We ended up going to Lufkin which I wasn't too stoked about because I can't spend that much money and we go to Lufkin a few times a semester but it turned into a fun adventure. We went to Target but actually didn't buy anything which is a miracle. Then we decided to get some dinner, but everyplace was totally crowded of course since it was Valentine's Day. We finally decided to eat at AppleBee's because the wait wasn't too long. Had a cheeseburger, and it was nice to have "real" food instead of blah cafeteria food. Then we went to Best Buy because Courtney had gift cards left over from Christmas, and we got the new Guitar Hero Wii game and a second guitar. Then we came back and started playing. It's pretty funny because we have been talking about forming a band and calling ourselves "Your Mom" because I mean, who wouldn't want to listen to a band called Your Mom? Then you could be like, hey i'm going to see Your Mom tonight! Or, Your Mom rocked last night! haha too funny. So, we named our band on Guitar Hero Your Mom!!! Our lives are complete now. haha. But yes, all in all it was a good Valentine's Day.

Vlog # 3

Marie's Great Day

Today was one of the best days I've had in awhile. First off, I got to sleep in because my first class wasn't until 11 today. And it was Feature Writing which I really enjoy. So I went to class and it was really good today and really inspiring. Then after class I went to go check my mail because mom said she had mailed me a package of Valentine's stuff and it got here today! I got a couple cards and conversation hearts and chocolate and the best part....Peeps!!!! And I have come to the conclusion that the Valentine's Peeps are totally the best!!!! I am munching on them as we speak! Or type, haha. Well then I watched last night's episode of LOST and it was good. I am really enjoying this season so far even though it's megaconfusing as always! Then I went to Walmart with Jordan because she needed to pick some stuff out for her man for Valentine's Day. We've been talking about getting colored streaks in our hair like "friendship streaks" but we hadn't been able to find anyplace to do it, but finally found a good place to get them done. So we decided to go do that! We both got a little purple streak in our hair and they look mega cute. And we have school spirit! haha. And the weather was great today too so we rolled with the windows down singing along to Taylor Swift and Britney. good times. Well later tonight we went to go see He's Just Not That Into You and it was really good. However, there were totally annoying people sitting right in front of us the whole time. Like the entire row in front of us was filled with one group who all knew each other and throughout the whole movie they were talking back and forth and laughing at stupid things. It was so frustrating. We just assumed that they were college students because they were acting so dumb, but no....after the movie we're walking to the parking lot and they were definitely all older women! Like 30 year olds! So that made us feel better about ourselves because we know how to behave better than grown adults. So ridic. Anyways, to make my day even better a certain someone texted me while we were in the movies. :] Happy Marie. Today was fabulous.

It's a Love/Hate Relationship

So I really don't care about Valentine's Day this year. Like, I don't have anybody to spend it with but I really don't care. Even if I were currently dating someone I wouldn't care too much either. I've been really busy and just haven't even thought about it. Which is good. I'm just going to spend the day studying for my Marketing test that's on Monday. I live such an exciting life, I know.

I love Sex And The City. But I hate the episodes with Carrie's russian lover. Mr. Big all the way.

I love The Fray. Hopefully I will get to see them live again this summer because that would be epic.

I love the fact that I'm actually starting off the semester well. Maybe I can actually make all A's this semester.

I like sitting on the opposite side of the desks at work now. I feel more powerful.

Speaking of work, I'm loving being Managing Editor this semester. I like having more responsibility and having people asking me for help.

I am glad that I chose to minor in Marketing. It's something that I actually "get".

I hate that I haven't been able to hang out with a certain somebody because of schedule conflicts.

I hate missing LOST and having to wait until tomorrow to watch it.

I love that there are only 29 more days until Spring Break. Can't wait to go home for a little bit.

I love the fact that they are playing Twilight on campus in a couple weeks. It's going to be epic.

......

If people have something to say they just need to say it.
Not be all bitter and hold grudges.
That's just lame and the last time I checked we're all adults here.
But I guess that's just too much to ask for some people.


I hate men.

All-Nighter, Humid Weather, and Weirdness

I pulled an all-nighter last night.
Bad decision.
I sit here filled with caffeine and am wired but so exhausted as well. Walking back to my room from the UC earlier I thought I was going to fall over. Not good.
Stayed up until about 5:30 a.m. this morning to finish my website for New Media. This project was supposed to take 2 weeks and I did it all in one night. I'm actually happy with the way it turned out though. And I made it to my 11 a.m. class this morning so that's good. After class I went and hung with Jordan in the UC for awhile and had a carmel frapaccino. It made me wired and now I'm feeling really weird because I'm just so tired. And this entry will probably make no sense. lol.
But anyways, the weather has been so humid lately. Today wasn't as bad as the 95% humidity we had yesterday, but I just want my hair to look good. Is that too much to ask?

Last night I was thinking about things that are weird to me:
-the fact that my sister has her license now.
-the fact that Obama is actually president now. I forget that often.
-Heroes.
-boys.


That is all.

Grammys=Epic Fail

I hate myself for not studying at all this weekend.
Bad Marie. Bad!

Anyways, today was ok. Got to sleep in until like 12:30. Then I went to work at the paper and that went alright today. Then I started watching the Grammy's and they were lame as usual. Coldplay didn't win album of the year which is total crap. And I really don't care that Blink 182 is reuniting.
So I was talking to Garrett earlier tonight just about relationships in general and we both came to the conclusion that dating is total crap. It sucks how when you "talking" to someone you can never be sure whether they are just being friendly or if there is a romantic interest. Like, it's so freaking lame. I just wish people could be upfront all of the time about what they want or don't want. That would make life so much easier. :P

Attack of the Girl Scout cookies!

Today was a mix between a productive day and an epic fail day.

Saturday used to be the day that I would sleep in until like noon and do nothing all day, but apparantely now it's the day to be productive. I had my alarm set for about 10:30 because I had to go to the animal shelter with my sorority at 11. Well, Brandon texted me at like 9:55 telling me to get up and be productive. Sigh. Then my roommate texted me a few minutes later asking if I was awake yet because she needed help moving over 50 boxes of Girl Scout cookies into our dorm room. And not just the little boxes of cookies, but actual cardboard boxes full of the cookie boxes. (She's a Girl Scout troop leader and had to store all of them for the day). Lesson of the day: I need to start putting my phone on vibrate when I go to bed Friday nights.

Anyways, Stacy came and picked me up and we met up with everybody at the animal shelter and it was soooo sad. I wanted to bring back a little puppy so bad! They are so adorable. Then I went back to my room and Court and I went to go eat lunch and then got milkshakes because they decided to keep the Smoothie place open on Saturday for once. Then the epic fail part of the day started.....I came back and just sat on Facebook for a good few hours. Forget that I have to create a website for New Media class by Wednesday. Forget that I have a Marketing test in a week that I need to ace. I just sat around surfing the web for a few hours. Then I watched Almost Famous and The Notebook. Wow I can be kind of pathetic sometimes. And now I'm just typing away at my blog when I could be studying. After this, I swear I'll do something productive. Even though it's like 12:30 in the morning. Anyways, so then Jenna was having one of her Girls' Nights tonight, so Jordan and I went over to her place for a couple hours and we played Apples To Apples and had some champagne. Fun times. And now I'm back in my room surfing the web again. Alright, time to be productive! :]

Pirate Reality Show

So. Jordan and Kevin and I are having a Pirates of The Caribbean Marathon tonight. Well, really only watching the first one because we didn't start until 11 p.m. and it would take 8 hours to watch all of them. So Jordan and I are typing to each other via Facebook wall posts while sitting on opposite sides of the couch, and we decided that we are going to become pirates on a new reality show. I mean, they have reality shows about everything...but not pirates! So we are going to capitalize on this ASAP! haha. We're going to travel the seas in a cool pirate ship and cute clothes. It's going to be awesome.

Amazingness Before Noon

Today has been a great day so far and it's only 12:30!!! I woke up on time for class this morning, and was checking the Internet before class, and found out that Coldplay is most definitely coming back to Texas this summer and I am so freaking excited!!!! I get to see Animal Collective, The Fray, and Coldplay this summer! So excited! Then I went to my two Marketing classes and the test that I had was very very easy. Then Courtney and I went to Stacy's Deli for lunch, which has basically become our Friday tradition. And it was super duper amazing as usual. Then I came back and just finished watching The Office and 30 Rock from last night and basically just spent the last hour laughing because they were greatness. Jon Hamm is guest starring on 30 Rock for a few episodes, which makes me very happy. :]

Blurb of the Day

So I'm sitting in the student center right now by myself because Jordan just left and I definitely just had a guy come up and tap me on the shoulder and tell me "you look really cool." Which I can't blame him, I mean, I I've got a cute outfit on and am typing up a storm on my Mac. Haha, just kidding. But yeah, kinda made my day in a weird way. He didn't seem like a weird stalker type person. lol. But anyways, I'll update more later tonight. Peace.

Song for January 2009

So I got this idea from another blog I stumbled across, and I really like it. I am going to pick a song at the end of each month for all of 2009 that describes how I felt about that month. Here is my pick for January of '09.

The Fray: Syndicate

enjoy the song. :]

Halfway around the world
Lies the one thing that you want
Buried in the ground, hundreds of miles down
First thing that arises in your mind while you awake
Bending you til you break
Let me hold you now

Baby close your eyes
Don't open til the morning light
Baby don't forget
You haven't lost it all yet

Don't know what your made of
Til the one thing that you want
To come in with the dawn and suddenly changes
Monday, syndicate me, its everyone the same
But all we've lost to the flame
Listen to me now

Baby close your eyes
Don't open til the morning light
Don't ever forget
We haven't lost it all yet
All we know for sure
Is all that we are fighting for
Baby don't forget
We haven't lost it all yet

Someday when this is over
We mix it up, no answer
For now its when I hold her
We are closer, we are closer
We are closer, we are closer

Baby close your eyes
Don't open til the morning light
Don't ever forget
We haven't lost it all yet
And all we know for sure
Is all that we are fighting for
Baby don't forget
We haven't lost it all yet

We are closer
we are closer
(We haven't lost it all yet)
Now we are closer
(We haven't lost it all yet)
We are closer

Randomosity

I'm working on my website project for New Media right now and I kinda want to throw my computer out the window, but instead I will refrain and take a break from that and just write a random blog.

I love Pavement so much. This band is my musical soulmate. And I don't use that term lightly. They are the only boys that have never let me down. Even if they aren't reuniting to play at Coachella this year. Someday soon they will reunite and I will totally see them live someday.

I want someone who will stay up all night sitting outside drinking hot chocolate with me stargazing and talking about anything and everything. I want someone who will stay up all night to watch the sun rise with me, just because. Someone who will sleep in late with me on Saturdays and read the paper and drink coffee with me. I want to find my perfect match. I'm slowly realizing this as I am coming out of my jaded phase. I really do want something like this, I'm just scared that when I find that again I'll just get bored after a year or two again. How do married couples stay together for so long? Maybe I just can't wrap my mind around that yet because I'm still young, but it just amazes me that two people can stay happy for that long together. My parents always told me that you go through ups and downs in marriage and that real love is sticking with that person through all of it. And I understand that, I do. But when do we know when the right time for that is? Is it a certain age, or when we meet a certain person we just know? I'm not sure yet.

I want to spend more time communing with nature. I have a whole bunch of nature around me, but I hardly ever go out and experience it. Maybe one day a week I will go sit by the pond and read or go explore in the arboretum.

I never thought I would become an avid coffee drinker. I used to hate the taste of coffee, even when it was mixed in with other flavors like certain drinks at Starbucks. But now I enjoy black coffee. I can't really function properly without coffee. I guess that's what happens when you get older. New acquired tastes.

After college I just really want to take a couple months and backpack through Europe. I want to save up some money and do that before I start working in the real world. I want to see the Eiffel Tower and Big Ben and all the museums and history Europe has to offer. I want to try new foods and broaden my cultural horizons. I want to go to Ireland and Italy and see the places my ancestors are from. I want to feel a connection to something in my family's past. I just want more answers to life's infinite mysteries.

My Week So Far...

This week has been going really great so far. Yesterday was one of the best days I have had in awhile. Woke up and went to my Feature Writing class and then grabbed some lunch and headed back to my room for awhile. Then I had to go do a little interview for the article i was working on about the Board of Regents, and that was pretty easy. Then the roommate and I went grocery shopping and came back and ate dinner, which sucked as usual. Later that night I went to Flashbacks with my sorority for a rush event, and we had a really good time. I was sitting with a couple girls who also work at the paper with me, and we were just talking about stuff at the paper and a bunch of guys in the Com department that we all know and love....Fun times. :] And the weather was perfect yesterday as well. Today has been ok so far. I woke up at 7:30 this morning. I went and got breakfast and then Starbucks because I am going to have a very long day. Then I went to my two Marketing classes and then hung out in the UC for awhile with Jordan before lunch. Now I'm just wasting time before my next two classes and then work at the paper later. Hopefully the rest of the day will go by smoothly. I'm starting to really enjoy this semester. I'm really going to try hard and make good grades on all my tests coming up in the next couple weeks. So anyways, I have just discovered my new favorite band: Fiction Family. It's the guy from Switchfoot and one of the guys from Nickel Creek combined. Last.fm told me I've listened to them almost 80 times in the last 24 hours. lol. But they fit well with my outlook on life right now. :]

Groundhog Day= No Bueno

Today was a really awkward day. My alarm went off around 8:15 and I was so exhausted from only getting 4 or 5 hours of sleep that I barely remember shutting it off. I had a 9 a.m. and a 10 a.m. class and definitely didn't wake up until 11. Bad. I really wanted to be better about not skipping class this semester, but old habits die hard. I woke up and didn't really do anything too productive for the first couple hours I was awake. It was really weird though, because my roommate also overslept. She woke up around 10 and saw that I was still asleep so she thought it was Sunday and just passed back out. She slept until 2 p.m. so that makes me feel a little better about myself. lol. Then I found out I had to run the paper meeting today because the editor had something come up, so I had to head over to the office to prepare for that. Then I went to Anthropology and that was kind of boring today especially because my roommate wasn't there since she was still sleeping. Then I went to the meeting and it was alright. I have a column to write for the next issue, and got stuck with writing a major article because nobody wanted to take it. I don't mind, I'm just really busy this week because we have rush events each night plus school plus newspaper. But anyways, everything will work out like always I'm sure. I blame Groundhog Day. :P

Superbowl and Rainy Nights

I have class at 9 a.m. tomorrow. It's almost 1 a.m. And I'm not tired at all. That's what I get for accidentally sleeping in until 2 p.m. yesterday and noon today. Oh well. So the Superbowl was today. I really could care less about football but of course I am always excited for food and commercials. Went over to Kevin's cause he and Jordan were having a Superbowl party, and that was fun. Basically just chilled on the couch for a few hours to watch the game, and it was pretty good. Then The Office was on for an hour, and it was reallyyyy funny tonight. I also started back up at work today. It's a lot more work than being Entertainment Editor. But I don't mind, because I really enjoy it and need the experience. We actually got the whole paper laid out in about three hours, which is really good. This semester is going to be good hopefully at the newspaper. Now I'm just listening to the rain and thunder and hoping it keeps raining until the morning so I can wear my new rainboots. :]

Come A Little Closer Baby

I heart Dierks Bentley. Thanks to reading old Myspace comments from like 2006 tonight I remembered my affirmation of country music from back then. So I proceeded to download his CD Modern Day Drifter and am now listening to it and thinking about a bunch of high school memories. Some of which I would rather not remember too clearly. Going shopping and to Starbucks everyday after school with Diane were great times. Going to the park and out to eat and to Target. We had such carefree times back then. First loves and first dates. First heartbreak. That feels like another lifetime ago. Which I guess it should, it's just so weird to think how different times were. Well anyways......

today was alright. accidentally slept in until almost 2 p.m. Whoops! But yes, just got ready for the day and then the roommate and I went to Subway for dunch. Then I met up with Jordan and Kevin and his sister in the arboretum so Jordan could take pictures for her digital photography class. Then we went back to the apartment and played Canasta. Then we moved on to the Wii and played some bombing game and then mario kart from the old school nintendo which i hadn't played in a good decade. Then Jenna and Jeryca came over and we started playing the game Ghost in the Graveyard, which is basically hide and seek in the dark with the seeker blindfolded. Fun times were had by all. But yes, now it's 2:30 a.m. and I have to be at work at 1 tomorrow. Normal people don't have to set their alarm in order to be awake before noon, but then again I'm not normal.