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More than anything I wish things could be in black and white...just this once....

Oh Lily Allen....

...you really do describe my life sometimes.


It's five o'clock
In the morning
Conversation got boring
You said you'd go
Into bed soon
So I snuck off
To your bedroom

And I thought
I'd just wait there
Until I heard you
Come up the stairs
And I pretended
I was sleeping
And I was hoping
You would creep in
With me

Put your arm
Around my shoulder
And it was
As if the room
Got colder
And we moved closer
In together
Started talking about
The weather

Said tomorrow
Would be fun
We could watch
A place in the sun
I didn't know
Where this was going
When you kissed me

Are you mine?
Are you mine?
Cause I stay here
All the time
Watching tele
Drinking wine
Who'd of known?
Who'd of known?
When you'd flash up
On my phone
I'd no longer
Feel alone
No longer
Feel alone
I haven't left here
For days now
And I'm becoming
Amazed how
You're quite
Affectionate in public
in fact your friend
Said it made her
Feel sick
And even though
It's moving forward
There's just the right
Amount of awkward
And today
You accidentally
Called me baby

Are you mine?
Are you mine?
Cause I stay here
All the time
Watching tele
Drinking wine
Who'd of known?
Who'd of known?
When you'd flash up
On my phone
I'd no longer
Feel alone

Let's just stay
Let's just stay
I wanna lie in bed
All day
We'll be laughing
All the way
You told your friends
They all know
We exist
But we're
Taking it slow
Now let's just see
How we go
Now let's see
How we go

Let's just stay
Let's just stay
I wanna lie in bed
All day
we'll be laughing
All the way
You told your friends
They all know
We exist
But we're
Taking it slow
And let's just see
How we go
Now let's see
How we go

The rest of my wonderful Spring Break

Alright, here is the rest of my Spring Break starting off with Wednesday. :]


Wednesday: Diane and I spent the day in downtown Dallas. We decided to take the DART train, since that would save gas and we could just take the train to wherever and not worry about parking. Well there's always creepers on there since it's cheap transportation in the middle of a big city, but I had never had an actual experience dealing with one until now. lol. We get onto the train at the first stop, and this guy is getting on at the same time at the door down from us, and I see him looking over at us but didn't think anything of it. We sit down, and the guy sits in front of us, then asks Diane if he could talk to her for a minute. She was like, about what? And he just started asking her creepy questions like how old she was, and what she does for fun, and where she goes to school and all that, and we're texting back and forth the whole time trying to decide what to do. She finally gets her boyfriend to call her so she could be distracted and when we got to our stop we like bolted off the train lol. Needless to say, it was kinda a freaky experience. We got some Starbucks and did a little shopping at Mockingbird Station and then got on the train again and took it farther downtown to the museum district and took some cool pics. Then we went to the West End, where we saw Keith Urban's tour bus in front of House Of Blues. He was playing a small, very expensive show there. We took pictures in front of his tour bus to look cool, of course. Then we got her boyfriend to drive us back to the car because he had met up with us at the West End and had his car with him so we didn't have to talk to anymore creepers lol.

Thursday: I spent the day out at Brandon's house on Thursday. But of course knowing me I had to get horribly lost on the way over, even though it's not difficult to get there at all. Google maps failed me twice in the same week. Sigh. But yes, we grabbed some lunch and walked around the outdoor shops and drove around and looked at all the fancy houses out there. Then we chilled at his house for awhile and he and his brother tried to make me do a system update on my computer so I could get the new version of Safari, but since I've only done one the whole two years I've had my Mac, it was going to take like 7 hours lol. So no new cool Safari for me. Later I came home and then Diane and I went to Starbucks and studied for a few hours.

Friday: Woke up and watched SFA play in the NCAA tournament. Although we lost, it was still awesome to see my school play in a national tournament. And, we didn't even loose that badly since the team we played was epically great. So yes, I am definitely still proud to be a Lumberjack! Then I got ready for the day and went to meet up with Diane at Starbucks again to study for a few hours. Then I came home and watched some movies and ate ice cream and just relaxed.

Saturday: Today I did basically nothing of interest. lol. Just did laundry and packed and got ready to head back to Nac. Now I'm ready to go back, but I don't want to face responsibilities or schoolwork. There is nothing of interest going on in the next three weeks. Well, actually there is a lot, but I'm not really excited about it. Going camping with the sorority next weekend. I am dreading it. I've never been camping, so I'm really nervous. I mean, what if we get eaten by bears or something? lol. Kidding. But yes, what will I do without my computer or hair straightener for a couple days? Freak out, I'm sure. Maybe it'll be fun. I doubt it though. Well here's to a great spring break. Hopefully the rest of this semester won't be too bad.

Blurb

Spring Break has been fabulous....just what I needed.... <3

don't want to go back to reality tomorrow.....


I'll do a full update of the past few days later tonight. :]

Spring Break days 3 and 4

Spring Break has been pretty great so far. I didn't blog yesterday, so I will start with Monday's adventures. I was woken up by my sister, and got ready and then went to Northpark with my mom and sister to go shopping. We got there and were having lunch, and the subject of my summer plans came up. I really really really want to stay at school this summer, it's just been a bit difficult convincing the parents. So, we're talking about it, and my mom actually seems okay with me doing that. And, she actually came up with an idea involving me having a car over the summer. Since my dad would have to come get me in May, it would be pretty hard for him to come back three weeks later to drop me off, come back in August to get me, and drop me off again later in August, so me having a car for the summer only would actually be beneficial. Since we have an extra car at the house right now it actually would work out perfectly. However, since there is no newspaper in summer I would have to find a job in order to have the car there. But that might not be too hard. Talked to dad about it today. He's not 100% convinced, but he's getting there. I would be so so so happy if I could have a car for summer! So we'll see. :] Anyways, we did some shopping, and I ended up getting two pairs of sandals, some shorts for the pool, and a pair of capris. Later that night my dad got home from his trip to Seattle so I caught up with him for awhile, and then just talked to people online the rest of the evening.

Today I woke up and went to get my hair trimmed, and came back to the house and ate some lunch. Then Diane and I went to Sprinkles Cupcakes, and it was amazing as usual. Then we went to Northpark, again. lol. I got a really cute turquoise dress at Forever 21. Tonight I took my sister and her best friend to see Jason Reeves in concert, which we have been quite excited about. It was in downtown Dallas, and I know my way around pretty well, but stupid google maps failed me this time. We got downtown, and were supposed to turn down some street near one of the DART stations, but it turned out to be some scary thing, and at one point we actually thought we were driving on the train tracks and were going to be stuck out there. It was very scary lol. But thankfully we found the venue, and got inside. We made our way to the front of the crowd and were right up by the stage. It was a small venue but that's nice because it feels more intimate. Jason Reeves was really great live. He played all our favorite songs, and I have come to the conclusion that I have to put dating a musician on my list of things to do before i turn 100. It's going to happen. And I don't mean like a guy that knows how to play an instrument in college band, I mean like a real legit (sorry jordan :P) band and whatnot. :]

On a random note, I have come to the conclusion that when I graduate next year I want to move to New York City and get a really awesome studio apartment in Greenwich Village and work in some area of the journalism/communication industry and be like a starving bohemian type writer. It's going to be great.

Spring Break Day 2

I love music. Without it sometimes I feel like I would be totally lost. Right now John Mayer and Jason Reeves just seem to be speaking to me through their music. And, I get to see one of them live this week which will be great fun. It's just nice to know that I'm not the only one feeling a certain way, even though it feels that way sometimes. I want to enjoy my Spring Break. I think all this gloomy weather has not been helping my mood for the past few days, but it is going to be sunny and 75 tomorrow, so I am determined to wake up and be content with life.

Today was the second day of Spring Break and it was alright. I slept in until 1 p.m. and then woke up to find SFA playing basketball on ESPN for the final game in the Southland Tournament. I watched the game and it was pretty awesome. We won, and are going to the NCAA Tournament for the first time in our school's history, which is pretty freaking exciting! However, there are always those haters that believe since we're a smaller school that we won't get any further. Well, we made it to the national championships, were undefeated in our conference, were undefeated in the Southland Tournament, and have the Player of the Year in the Southland Conference, so I think we can handle it in the big leagues. I am proud to be a Lumberjack baby! My roommate plays in the band, and she gets to travel with them to Miami for the first game! I am so jealous! But I will be watching the game on television of course. :]

Then we just ate some dinner, and then I went to go hang with Diane for awhile. We went to Starbucks and just chilled and caught up for awhile and then went to Target and they had so much freaking cute stuff. I saw the cutest Hello Kitty sandals ever, but they are 17 dollars. I am so very tempted to go back tomorrow when my paycheck clears lol.

Then we were driving home, and saw this traveling carnival that is up at the mall for a few weeks, so we decided to go check that out since it might be a good photo op. Took some cute pictures that I edited on the wondrous Picnik when I got home.

Hopefully the rest of the week will be fun. Shopping, trip to Ft. Worth, Sprinkles, Jason Reeves concert, hanging with Brandon and Diane more, and good weather. :]

Spring Break

Spring Break should not equal rainy cold weather. But that's what it's been like the past few days. And it sucks. At least the weather is supposed to get better by Monday. But anywho, yesterday we headed home around noon, and it was a nice trip, but it rained the entire three hours home! Lame sauce. I got home around 3 p.m. and right now it's just my mom and sister and I at home because my dad is in Seattle for a business trip until Monday. So we rented Rachel Getting Married and Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist and both were pretty great. Then today we saw Slumdog Millionaire (yes, i realize I have seen it three times now lol but it's good!) and did a little shopping and had dinner at Chili's. Then we came home and I got really bored so I decided to go study and chill out at Starbucks, which was nice. Now I'm chilling on the couch watching television and talking to a couple people online. Hopefully the rest of break will be a bit more eventful.
On a random note, for some reason I have come to the conclusion that I have like all guy friends now. I don't know how exactly that happened. The people I talk to/hang out with the most include Jordan, Brandon, Garrett, and Nathan. Only one of those people is a girl. Obviously I have more female friends, but I don't really talk to them anymore on a regular basis. I never used to be one of those girls that had mainly guy friends. In fact, I used to be the girl that guys with all female friends wanted to date. Now it's like the exact opposite and I don't know why. And that's not to say I want to date every single male friend I have. Brandon is like a brother to me at this point, and Nathan is as well, I just want to know how I got to this point. Hanging out with guys has it's advantages because there is hardly any drama, and I abhor drama. It's just weird to me. Idk. I can't really explain it. Oh well.

The kids don't stand a chance

Wednesdays=no fun. Especially when it's raining and gross outside.
But today actually wasn't too bad. I'm not quite sure why though.....
I woke up in time for class today, and my roommate had already left to go down to Houston to play in pep band for at the basketball tournament, so I have my room to myself for a couple days, which I am very happy about. But yes, went to my two morning classes and then had some lunch with Jordan and Kevin and then went back to my room to finish my New Media project. I finished that up, and really just didn't feel like going to Anthropology so I decided to skip and rewatch There Will Be Blood Instead. Tried to watch it last semester but just couldn't get into it. It's ok, you just have to concentrate really hard and I get distracted easily even when I watch by myself lol. So anyways, then I went to New Media and it was lame as always. Then I got some dinner and went to work at the paper. Finished that up and then went to a social at Java Jacks with the sorority and it was pretty fun. Then I came back home and just chatted online with a few people and am just relaxing and enjoying some alone time! One more full day until Spring Break!!!!!

it's not hard to fall when you float like a cannonball

Why can't anything ever be easy? Whenever we talk it just feels like everything is right in the world. We have mature grownup conversations that I can't have with many people. You can make me laugh like no other. But is there anything there? You tell me.

my week so far

Well it's midterms week, but thankfully I don't have any!! Just this blasted project for New Media that I'm almost finished with. I've basically been living in the Pine Log office the last couple days, but the few of us working on the project have had fun. Today i really just did not feel like going to Feature Writing. So, I slept in until almost 1 p.m. lol. Then Courtney and I went to get some lunch in the cafeteria, and I get a text message from my friend Kyle who goes to UT Tyler, and he's like, hey i'm sitting at Starbucks in the UC reading your paper! you should come by and say hi if you're free. So, after lunch I headed up there to visit with him for awhile. He's on Spring Break this week, and came down here for a few days to visit his girlfriend that goes to school here. We just talked about life and school and journalism and all that, since he's the Entertainment Editor for his college newspaper. And then I showed him our office which all visitors "oooh and awe" about it since it's all new and pretty lol. But yeah, then I spent another few hours in the office working on my project and an article and then went to an Amnesty meeting. And now I'm basically done with everything and have two more full days to get through until I go home on Friday for Spring Break! Cannot freaking wait!!!!!!

Boresville

So there hasn't been much to blog about the last couple days. This past weekend was the biggest waste ever. Didn't even do anything until like Sunday afternoon/night. Saw Milk last night with Garrett. It was alright. Not *amazing* like all the critics were saying. I still liked Slumdog better and am totally glad that won Best Picture. Now it's only about 4 days until Spring Break. I can make it. Just have to get through this New Media project and I'll be golden. Then I get to see my family and Diane and Brandon and have great times. Cannot wait.

Titanic

I'm living vicariously through Jack and Kate while watching Titanic.
Since apparantely I am a defective.
Everybody, and I mean everybody, has a special someone right now.
Brandon, Jordan, Allison, Stevie, Diane, and Courtney all have significant others or whatnot.
I don't.
Which, normally doesn't bother me, but everybodyyyyy else does and is constantly talking about it.
I think I'm a pretty awesome person.
Basically one of the coolest out there.
So why do men seem to be repelled by me recently?
I was talking to Allison earlier and she said the same thing happened to her a lot recently but now she actually found a good guy so that's good for her. At least I haven't been the only one.
I'll just keep chugging along here until someone realizes I'm here.

quick update on the life of marie

-passed my Marketing test! made a 75, but for having the flu the five days before the test and hardly getting to study, i was very happy with a C. lol.
-it's the weekend. that means only one more week until spring break. i think i can make it.
-i'm catching up on all my work at the newspaper. just did 2 out of 3 interviews i needed to do. now i'll just be writing all weekend.

OK, real update later tonight. :]

Lovesick

Spring fever has hit. Everyone is lovesick.
But I'm the exact opposite.
I cringe everytime I see a cute couple or hear lovey dovey talk.
It's hard for me to sit with a straight face while I listen to friends talk about their new relationships.
It's just all one big game to me.
I sit there and listen to friends tell me about the guy they've been hooking up with or their soon to be relationship. But truth be told, on the inside I just can't really handle it. I don't want a random hookup or just some month-long fling. I want the real deal, and I'm not going to settle until I find it.

i can never think of catchy titles anymore!

Today was interesting. Last night I decided to get in bed at 10:30 because I had a test this morning and wanted to get up early and eat breakfast. I took some pills before I went to bed since I'm still not 100% better, but I forgot that one of them usually makes me jittery. So, I couldn't really fall asleep. Then about an hour later I couldn't stop coughing, so I just sat up in bed and watched television for awhile and sucked on a cough drop. I finally fell asleep around 1 I think. What a waste of time lol. Anyways, so then I was woken up around 5:30 a.m. to the sound of my roommate. She plays World of Warcraft, and talks to the other people in the game through her little headset, and usually I don't hear her but she was being really loud this morning. I was just laying awake in bed listening to her, and I realized that the reason she was being so loud is because she had been drinking. What else is new. Then, I hear her tell whoever she was talking to that she smoked pot in the bathroom the other night. I remember waking up on Monday morning I think and the bathroom smelled like burnt popcorn, but I just assumed that it was from my suitemates because they are crazy. But no, it was definitely because my freaking roommate was smoking pot in the bathroom. Sigh. Oh the things you find out when other people think nobody is listening to them. But she just kept talking and talking and talking, and eventually like an hour later I just got out of bed because I was sick of laying there and it was about 6:45. I get up, and she is sitting there at the desk with 5 empty beer bottles. Sigh. It's a Wednesday morning. She didn't go to bed. She always does things like this but this was kind of extreme. I love her to death, but the fact that she doesn't care about school or sleep or her health really gets to me sometimes. Well anyways, then we went to go eat breakfast in the cafeteria and I went to go take my test and I'm not really sure how I did. It seemed a little better than the last test, but I was still definitely unprepared. So my day was definitely not off to a good start. I pretty much had four hours to kill before my afternoon classes started so I just went back to the room and hung out on the computer and started to watch Little Mermaid because I needed to be in a good mood. Then I went to Anthropology and brought my computer so I would have some form of entertainment besides taking notes. That class goes by so slow I swear. I just talked to my Dad on AIM for awhile and Facebooked and actually did take some notes too lol. But yeah, then I went to New Media, and for some reason all the computers in the Communication Building have been really really slow for the past few days so we only had class for an hour! I was so happy because that class is usually two and a half hours and I hate that so much. Then I went to work at the paper and happened to get to talk to my friend Jesse on Facebook while I was working, which actually made my day a lot better, so thank you if you're reading this. :P But yes, finished up at the paper, and now I'm back in my room watching American Idol and waiting for the new episode of LOST! And then after that I'm heading out to the movies with Garrett to see Slumdog Millionaire which I am excited to see for the second time! Fun times will be had by all. :] Wow, if somebody reads all that then kudos to you. :]

My Outlook

"IF YOU WANT TO LIVE A HAPPY LIFE, TIE IT TO A GOAL, NOT TO PEOPLE OR THINGS."- Albert Einstein

That quote basically sums up how I've been feeling about life lately. In the past it's always seemed like I've based some of my decisions on what other people around me were doing. Like, my summer plans or possible graduation date, or even how many jobs I worked over the summer for instance. I have finally decided that I need to stop trying to rely on other people because honestly, the only person you can look out for and rely on is yourself. I don't care if you've got great friends or a great boyfriend, you can only rely on yourself to get what you want accomplished. This may sound selfish to some people, but it's the truth. And it's how I'm going to go about my life from now on. I'm an independent woman and that's how I'm going to come across from now on. I am going to graduate either next May or August, and move where I want regardless of any boyfriend at the time. I'm going to be looking out for number 1 from now on.

Most Boring Post Ever

Today was alright. Woke up at 10 and went to my 11 o'clock class. I couldn't stop coughing though and I hate to be that person in class like that lol. Then got some lunch and just watched television the rest of the afternoon. Studied some for Marketing tomorrow. I am really nervous. I bombed the first test so I need to at least pass this one. I have the basics down, but his tests are so hard, so I'm not sure what to expect. Fingers crossed. I finally got my appetite back so Courtney took me to get some Cane's a few minutes ago. Now I'm just watching The Office and then Sex And The City and then it's bed time! I forgot how much I loved sleep lol.

Last Sick Day

Today was the first day I have felt a little better. I haven't had fever in 24 hours. I still feel kinda loopy but I was able to function during the day today. Slept until 12 because I didn't go to any classes. Then Courtney and I went to go get some lunch, and we were sitting in the back room with the long tables because we were with some of her friends, and of course, Danny comes and sits with the group of people on the other end of the table. I actually put on jeans today and some cute shoes, but I had no makeup on and had my glasses on and I still looked like death lol. So I figured he wouldn't recognize me, but no. He was like, Hey Marie! I heard you weren't feeling well, hope you start feeling better soon! I was like, I'm pretty sure you didn't "hear" that I was feeling bad. I'm pretty sure that you saw on my Facebook that I was sick. lol. But I was like, well thank you. And that was that. lol Today *had* to be the day where I saw all the cute guys I ever thought were cute. sigh. Pretty much did nothing else the rest of the day. I got asked by these cool local musicians who own a record label in town to do a feature article on one of their new CDs, so that's pretty cool. Now that I've been writing for awhile it's awesome to have people come to me and ask me to write articles over them instead of vice versa. But yes, then I have a really big Marketing test on Wednesday. :/ I was planning on studying all weekend, but obviously I was on my death bed. I am so nervous. I was talking to my mother and she told me just to read one chapter tonight and one chapter tomorrow and make some notes and just try my best. That way I won't have just blown it off and won't have used being sick as an excuse. So hopefully I won't do too horribly. In some ways I think being sick helped cleanse my body. I had been feeling really rundown and stressed out the past couple weeks, and now I just feel more at ease. I am going to try and get a more normal sleep schedule and try eating more than just junk food lol. Spring break cannot get here fast enough!!!! 10 DAYS!!!!

Being Sick=no fun

I want to get well.
My fever wasn't as high today but now my throat feels better and it has moved down to my chest making my cough much worse. Great.
Not going to make it to any classes tomorrow which is definitely not good. Hopefully Tuesday I will be able to get more things done.
I've seriously been laying in bed watching reruns of America's Next Top Model for the last 6 hours. I hate being sick.